so. last weekend. i decided. that i am going to start taking back my life. slowly. step by step. finally.
since last summer. my life has been busy. super busy. one year of craziness. and leslie got put on the bottom of the list. the priority list. the very bottom. the bottom that you never get to. that bottom. i would go through waves of frustration. big waves. and therefore h-kun, too. hated the busyness. and my grumpiness. so. decisions have been made. about the business. (increasing my helper's hours.) and teaching. (keeping my current schedule. and slowing down the school dream.) that will give me more time. more time.
because. it's time. to start doing things i used to do more of. that i need to do. and that i enjoy. keep-leslie-sane-and-smiling kind of things. creating. designing. and sewing for me. exploring with h-kun. swimming. reading. buying flowers. studying. writing postcards. taking pictures. taking naps. biking. window shopping. relaxing with others. and maybe a couple of new things, too.
and it's time. to get healthy. which encompasses so much. sleeping. exercising. eating well. relieving stress. growing emotionally. spiritually. relaxing. and being thankful. and joyful.
this last week was good. i bought flowers. i swam four times. four. i sewed. met a new little one. and i didn't work today. nor did i buy chocolate. today. whoohoo. i know. it's not going to be easy. but i am going to try. try hard. because i need to. for me. and for h-kun.
h-kun. loves this new plan. too. and just wants to see me happy. and enjoying life. to the fullest. so i made him a deal. that if in the fall my plan is still in place. and i'm still trying. then we will go to disney sea. in tokyo. two places he does not care for. almost hates. the deal. call it manipulation. or trickery. or something else. but it sounded good to me. and he agreed. instantly. this is how i know he loves me. times ten.
and. if you would like that mickey and minnie flip mirror. above. that was bought for this post. because i couldn't find any disney in the house. just be the first person to let me know.
oh. it's before 11pm. and i am going to bed. amazing.